Lowest lows

A little bit of encouragement and love is all that's needed when you reach rock bottom

Work

The working world seems to be a really scary place.
Sometimes it's quite amazing at how things work around the place.
Every cog and wheel in society, how everything turns.

When you're in school or even university there are so many things that you learn in class that you wonder what use it would really be later. Similarly, there are so many "know-hows" that just seems to be common sense or just so simple that you feel people out there won't really pay you to do this- at least not well. I just sometimes really wonder about this. Does the educational environment really prepare you for the work environment. Sometimes I feel like I've been in academics for way too long that it's a little scary to face the real world. But recently, even the feel for the academic world, or the excitement I had for the research world has really burnt out. I don't know how some people do it. And now when I think about it, it feels like when I go out there I'm gonna be starting from scratch if I decide not to do any work related to the science-field.

The void

Why do relationships all tend to suck eventually?

They always start out fun, romantic and exciting but always end up being dull and boring.
If the only way to keep things going is to not fall into a routine, then how do you do that with someone that's supposed to be a part of your every day life.

I've always thought relationships are like a cave you can sort of seek out comfort, and provides a sense of a home, and vice versa.

Recently, I think I've become more and more lost. I know that communication is the key and all that, and I know that it's unreasonable to expect someone to read your mind. But surely there are times that you just don't want to talk about somethings, or that you're upset about somethings and you want the other person to notice? But maybe because everything is so "routine" that they miss out on some things. Similarly, maybe because they're part of your every day life that you take them for granted or them you. Maybe it's because we start taking them for granted that everything starts to lose its taste and flavor.

I think in a way I've lost so much of myself in the last 7 years that I forget what it's like to be me and only me. Maybe I should be a lot more independent and rational. The idea of being single is so alluring...

Thoughts thoughts thoughts

I seem to be posting a lot of music/ lyrics lately.
I know there's a lot I want to write about but it always seems to just swim around in my head or be like at the tip of my tongue, and I fail to spell things out.


I suppose the main thing that's bothering me is that I'm overseas (well more like back in my home country) studying masters and trying to maintain a long distance relationship with my fiance. It's been just over one year so far, and he came and visited a few months ago. But for some reason, things seems to just have gotten harder. I'm past halfway to getting my masters but recently it feels like I can't hold on any longer.

I know he wants to come over, but I don't really know if he can make it since he isn't a citizen here. Sigh~

The Last Goodnight- Pictures of you

This is the clock upon the wall
This is the story of us all
This is the first sound of a newborn child,
Before he starts to crawl
This is the war that's never won
This is a soldier and his gun
This is the mother waiting by the phone,
Praying for her son

[Chorus]
Pictures of you, pictures of me
Hung upon your wall for the world to see
Pictures of you, pictures of me
Remind us all of what we used to be

There is a drug that cures it all
Blocked by the governmental wall
We are the scientists inside the lab,
Just waiting for the call
This earthquake weather has got me shaking inside
I'm high up and dry

Pictures of you,pictures of me
Hung upon your wall for the world to see
Pictures of you,pictures of me
Reminds us all of what we used to be

[Chorus]

Confess to me, every secret moment
Every stolen promise you believed
Confess to me, all that lies between us
All that lies between you and me

We are the boxers in the ring
We are the bells that never sing
There is a title we can't win no matter
How hard we might swing

Pictures of you, pictures of me
Hung upon your wall for the world to see
Pictures of you, pictures of me
Remind us all of what we could have been

Pictures of you, pictures of me
Hung upon your wall for the world to see
Pictures of you, pictures of me
Remind us all of what we could have been

Could have been (x2)

We could have been (x2)

Pictures of you, pictures of me
Remind us all of what we could have been

Could have been (x2)

2cellos!!!

Came across the 2cellos from Croatia recently.

Not only are their covers of "Smells like Teen Spirit" and "Smooth Criminal" awe, they're pretty good looking too~!

Have a look!!!

Smooth Criminal
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jjOQac1vOEc
Smells like teen spirit
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S7bz1gFc2kg

Love or work?

If you had to choose between love and work which would you choose?

Mel C- Never Be the Same Again

Have ALWAYS loved this song~

"Never Be The Same Again"

Come on. Ooh, yeah.
Never be the same again.

I call you up whenever things go wrong.
You're always there. You are my shoulder to cry on.
I can't believe it took me quite so long.
To take the forbidden step.
Is this something that I might regret?

(Come on, come on)
Nothing ventured nothing gained. 
(You are the one)
A lonely heart that can't be tamed.
(Come on, come on)
I'm hoping that you feel the same.
This is something that I can't forget.

I thought that we would just be friends.
Things will never be the same again.
It's just the beginning it's not the end.
Things will never be the same again.
It's not a secret anymore.
Now we've opened up the door.
Starting tonight and from now on.
We'll never, never be the same again.
Never be the same again.

Now I know that we were close before.
I'm glad I realised I need you so much more.
And I don't care what everyone will say.
It's about you and me.
And we'll never be the same again.

I thought that we would just be friends (oh yeah).
Things will never be the same again. (Never be the same again)
It's just the beginning it's not the end. (We've only just begun)
Things will never be the same again.
It's not a secret anymore.
Now we've opened up the door. (Opened up the door)
Starting tonight and from now on.
We'll never, never be the same again.
Never be the same again.

Nite and day.
Black beach sand to red clay.
The US to UK, NYC to LA.
From sidewalks to highways.
See it'll never be the same again.
What I'm sayin'
My mind frame never changed 'til you came rearranged.

But sometimes it seems completely forbidden.
To discover those feelings that we kept so well hidden.
Where there's no competition.
And you render my condition.
Though improbable it's not impossible.
For a love that could be unstoppable.

But wait.
A fine line's between fate and destiny.
Do you believe in the things that were just meant to be?
When you tell me the stories of your quest for me.
Picturesque is the picture you paint effortlessly.

And as our energies mix and begin to multiply.
Everyday situations, they start to simplify.
So things will never be the same between you and I.
We intertwined our life forces and now we're unified.

I thought that we would just be friends.
Things will never be the same again.
It's just the beginning it's not the end.
Things will never be the same again.
It's not a secret anymore.
Now we've opened up the door.
Starting tonight and from now on.
We'll never, never be the same again. 

(Come on, come on)
Things will never be the same again.
(You are the one)
Never be the same again.
It's not a secret anymore.
We'll never be the same again.
It's not a secret anymore.
We'll never be the same again.
Never be the same again.
Never be the same again.
Never be the same again.
Never be the same again.

Haha! I love veggies~

The power of Regret

What if the only thing pushing us forward is the fear or regret?
But if we choose one path, surely we'd lose out on another?
Seems like a constant struggle of which regret is less severe, and we walk accordingly.

Something Borrowed

Watched this last night and loved the song by Natasha Bedingfield

A little too much

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DWkruuiml3s&feature=share

Waiting

In this moment
Nothing feels right
How long do we wait till the moment is right?
How much time is spent on the waiting, waiting, waiting....
Why can't we be satisfied and enjoy this moment
Is it because we're greedy?
Or is it because we're perfectionists
Is this ambition speaking in our everyday lives?
Or fear speaking for us?

When we are in the moment... will we really it enjoy it to the fullest?

Finally back on Deviantart

I'm a terrible blogger. I really really do try, but then I get lazy and then I lose interest and stop blogging. And then one day I think I really should start again and it turns into a vicious cycle.

I also find blogging to be so much more difficult these days. Dunno why :/

Aaaaanyway! New DA account is up. Please have a browse www.visuallyours.deviantart.com

Reality's Scale

Living in a reality defined by senses.
How real is the human realm?
Which is reality?
That of the mind or that of the body?
What is mental or what is physical.
Two which are apart are symbiotic.
Funtioning as a whole.
One half of a whole.
Yet in the unbalanced world, that if the mind is inferior.

Coffee

Isn't there a way to avoid sleepless nights when you have coffee?

Feeble attempts at art

This is just a feeble attempt at doing some photoshop work. Very basic color adjustment and editing. Sigh~ how I envy true artists!

Avril Lavigne- Nobody's Home

Some songs just make so much sense after having been through some things...
It's like listening to love songs before and after you've fallen in love.
Anyway... just been in a very Avril Lavigne mood lately. No idea why.... still it's just the old stuff really.

Avril Lavigne- Nobody's Home

I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.

What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Open your eyes and look outside, find the reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.
Yeah,oh

She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah
She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah 

Art Taipei 2011

Went to the Art Taipei Expo today.

Have really really missed seeing so much creativity and innovation!

I miss the art world. *heart*

Some of my faves:

Gotta start somewhere sometime ^^

I've been meaning to start a blog for a while now. Just a place to place my thoughts anonymously to the world and real life. Some place to connect to people and make friends. I used to love writing, and even though I'd get into periods when I feel completely drained of words, I always manage to squeeze something out. I guess this blog will just be like a journal. More of a place for the real me I seem to be losing slowly. So hopefully I'll be able to recover some of what was me.